How can i go on...

Im all alone again...
Wondrin' where my feet can take me then...
Tryin' to find my way in this solitude...
In this lonely path i've pursued...
Haunted by the shadows of the past...
Tortured by mistake,Oh how long would it last!
This pain is consuming me...
That thy heart can no longer see...
How can i go on without you...

Tell me why...

I see you when i close my eyes...
I hear your voice inside me...
Shouting... Screaming.. Crying...
Like this river of loneliness that never dies...
I miss your lips...
I miss your smiles...
I think im gonna die...
Can't help but think of you...
Tell me why...

I Should... I Would... But I Couldn't...

I wanna embrace you right...
I wanna kiss you good night...
But your miles apart..
And i miss you with all my heart...

Oh i long to see you..
Long to be with you...
But you are too far away...
And all i can do is hope and pray...

I should... I would... but I couldn't...

Sorry...

Sorry can't bring back the way it used to be...
Only Memories to dream on...
Sorry can't erase the pain...
Only to console someones heart...
Sorry can't undone what's done...
Only to correct its mistakes...
Sorry can't bring you back to me...
Only you... Only you...

I was wrong...

never meant to hurt you...
never meant to put tears in your eyes...
never meant to push you away...

i thought i can live without you...
i was believing in my lies...
i just wept all night and pray...

please stay and don't go...
please without you i can't go on...
please love me again...

One...

As i watch the sunset...
I reminisce our moments;
Oh! girl how can i forget...
Those beautiful eyes and your perfume scents;

The way you walk with me thru the moonlight...
Seems that everything will be alright;
And i prayed that this would never end;
Let the Time stop, Let the Angels descend...

For no matter what happens...
You and me will always be...
One...

Return...

Whenever i look at the moonless starless sky...
I always remember the day you said goodbye...
My world was crumbling down...
Thinkin' better i was better dead...
But faith kept me strong...
My Love for you kep me alive...
As i stand at the edge of the earth...
Shouting your name...
Longing for your return...
After years of discern...
Searching for your soul...
Finding your heart...
Feeling incomplete...
Let my love complete you..
Let my arms embrace your soul...
And let my heart find your heart...
But until then...
I'll just wait for your return...

I wanna be one...

I wanna be the one...
to hold your hand when you cross the streets...
I wanna be the one...
to embrace you whenever there's a cold breeze...
I wanna be the one...
to wipe all your tears...
I wanna be the one...
to protect you from all of your fears...
I wanna be the one...
the one you call your one...

How Did I Spent My Holy Week? (CEBU)

Nothin much... i was kinda stuck in my room... Reading, John Grisham's Novel that i just bought... Imagine that 1 book per day! I just went out my lair last friday to have a feel of cold breeze in my face... and walk from my place to carmelite church... It took me at least an hour maybe... wandering around... And finally i arrived at this holy place and it was jampacked with people...its a good sign that filipino's still spent their holy week with family on churches rather on beaches bitchin'... Well hell there will be enough time for swimming on beaches anyway...Besides Holy week is just like 3-4 Days of Getting Closer to GOD(Oh! do i sounded like a holy man now?Ugh... Nosebleed...)Well those time help me understand not just the holy scriptures say's(U know the BIBLE! duh!)but also myself(Well most of the time i also don't understand myself! Lolz!)Marami din me nabisita na mg churches d2...(Pag nsa loob nga me eh dko macontrol ung pagpapawis ko...ang init kce...or baka nasusunog lang ako!hehehe) Im gonna miss this place though... after im gone...(Not dead you moron!)I mean when i get back to manila... Just miss walkin' at the beaches doin' nothin' just starin' at the sunset... and lookin' at the stars... pretendin' to be somewhere else...the cold breeze of the wind...remindin' us that they are there...the unfamiliar words like pleti(fare),pus-o(a substitute for rice),tinae(isaw),lingkod(which means upo or sit...i thought i was going to serve them or what!)and that langgam!(then suddenly they look at the air! huh! It means ibon pla d2! wahehehe)and that "JERJER" word...hmmm could somebody refresh my mind what does it mean???that already been tattoed on my mind even if i lost my mind! And of course the people... even if you don't understand what the hell they are sayin' to you... just smile! It works! My friends... meron b? wahehehe.. well actually there's a lot... the manong guard that guards this establishment that i seem to piss off whenever he see's me...still puzzles me why???The owner of the carenderia that i happily call taytay and nanay...very great food and very cheap! ever heard of a 10 pesos value meal!. There is also the nice couple at the sidewalk or pungko-pungko who sells one of the best PUS-O specially when its HOT! and the very delicious SABAW(nde madamot s sabaw d2! wahehehe...)And of course the friendly friends of emee...Sansu,Marc,Wena and Kuya Cute(courtesy of emee..=)) and of course Love who has been very hospitable nung ngpunta kme sa knila tsaka sa dagat nila =)...tsaka ung mga kapitbahay ko d2 na kahit di ngsasalita masyado(Langya...Halos mapanis laway ko d2 pag walang kausap...)bsta ngitian mo nlng ay ngingitian k nrin...Meron din d2 na parang ako mgsalita...ung radyo!kso nga lng nde ko maintidihan ung mga cnasabi...kaya pag naririnig ko un...NOSEBLEED nko! Minsan nmn feeling marunong magbsa ng bisayan newspaper... eh ang tinitingnan ko lng nmn dun eh ung mag pictures! tsaka ung mga english captions!(that was a month ago... now marunong nko ah...) im sure gonna miss this place... sure did... and you kno what... im missing it already...at this very moment...(senti nanaman ang taranta**! wahehehe)

Mar 24, '08 4:11 PM

Why did i walked away...

Im movin' so fast...
I've been runnin' from the past...
In my solitude... suddenly you came...

You've change everythin...
Now i don't feel like im nothin...
Now my life isn't so lame...

In this years of disdain...
For so long i've been waitin'...
Since antemundane...

It was you all this time...
You have always been mine...
But i don't understand... Why did i walked away...?

When I think about you...

Losing my senses...
In this loneliness...
Damn i miss your smiles...
Your tender lips...
And your naughty craziness...
I long for your embrace...
And the way your eyes gaze...
Whenever you hear my corny jokes...
The way you squeeze my hand...
When i'm feelin' down...
The way you make me laugh...
Not because of your witty remarks...
But with your serious reactions...
The way you piss me off...
And then make funny faces just to console me...
The way you say sorry...
Just hold my hand and i'm ok...
The way you always walked away...
After a "Word War"...
And i always run after...
For i'll never leave you no matter...
What happens to the world...
The star may come crashing to...
Us, but i will not falter...
And i'll always be at your side...
I won't promise...
I'll just prove it...

Karma

I'm out in the open...
I'm bleedin'...
I'm broken...
Shoutin' your name...
It's never been the same...
I know i've hurt you...
I admit its true...
But does it mean...
You have to hurt me too...

New...

I can’t find the missin’ pieces of me…
Feeling lost and broken…
The sunshine of happiness i can no longer see…
My life is uncertain and my sky has darken…

I long to see tomorrow…
Long to see again your beautiful face…
Release you from the bondage of pain and sorrow…
So that with you i’ll spend my end of days…

I have suffered and endured the pain of mistakes…
Realizin’ what you really mean into my life…
I get you back no matter what… whatever it takes…
For together we’ll start a new beginning… a new life…

You never saw me cryin'... but deep inside my heart is bleedin'...

im sorry for being an asshole...
don't know what im missin';
since i almost lost you;
i'll be damn if i ever lost you again...

you never saw me cryin'...
but deep inside my heart is bleedin';
im standin' at the edge the world;
im alone and its so cold...

the burning passion of flame...
still burns the same;
cause its only you that makes me dream;
even if im awake...

you never saw me cryin'...
but deep inside my heart is bleedin';
until forever isn't true;
i'll be waitin' for you...

I Miss You So...

I tried to call you on your phone...
But i your not home...Then i called your cellphone...
I guess it's off... I tried calling your globe,your smart and sun...
But hell i can't even connect to just one...

So tell me now...
And tell me how...
Would there be tomorrow...
Despite of all this pain and sorrow...

And how can i hold on...
Without you girl i just can't go on..

NOW or NEVER...

I can't understand myself today...
This is one of my loneliest day...
Trying to find myself again...
Wondering where my feet could take me then...

Losing my sanity...
Looking for reality...
So tell me how can i survive...
Without you girl by side...

I'm losing my mind...
Trying to find...
That missing part of me...
Oh baby can't you see...

You are the one that completes me...
And i miss you so badly...
How i wish you are here tonight...
Never letting go... embracing me tight...

Oh i wonder where you are...
Are we staring at the same bright star...?
If only i could hold you again...
I'll never promise... i will just love you till the end...

As the tears run down my eyes..
Wishing that it could also wash the pain and the lies...
Oh i know its my fault that i inflicted you so much pain...
Of all the love you sacrificed upon me... this is what you have to gain...

Baby I'm sorry... Although our love right is now not on the right track...
And the precious love once we had... now has a crack...
Even if i try so hard to hide the misery...
The pain in your smile i still see...

How i miss the way your fingers caress my face...
The way your eyes dances... the cute way you gaze...
The simple " i love you's"... the way you care...
Never leaving me...you're always there...

Oh i know i lost my way...
Yes i was wrong... i got nothing to say...
But baby if you could only read my mind...
Yes i've been a fool...searching for something that have always been mine...

But tonight all i can do is hope and pray...
Hoping that tomorrow i'll see another day...
With you...Holding you close to me... embracing you tightly
Whispering I love you... kissing you tenderly...

Although we are miles away... just wait for me baby and i'll be there to stay...
With you...I may not promise forever, but we'll hold on together until the end of day...
And this time i'll be sweeter...
Cause baby it's now or never...

Confessions of a broken heart...

I’m confused if I still love you…

I know you deserved a love that’s true…

I have hurt you so much…
But still you loved me much…

Though the trust have been broken...

And yet you still there to accept me then…

I don’t know if I’m still the one…
What if the feeling is gone…?

And we don’t have the same flame…
Would our love still be the same…?

I guess people don’t realize how important someone…

Not when they are already gone…

I don’t want to hurt your feeling’s…

But right now I just don’t understand what’s going…

Can it be possible that one heart can be tired of loving…?

Trying too hard to keep this love alive and fighting…
Through the years we have keep holding on...
Knowing our love can still go on…

Are we just too foolish to think that we’re right…?

Blinded by the thought of love to hold on and fight…

Too damn proud to lose our pride…?
Can’t stand losing someone on our side…
Can’t accept the fact that we’re falling out love…
Ignoring the reality of losing the one we have loved…

Do we always need someone in our everyday called life…?
That someone we care about and to whom we can confide…
I don’t want you to think that I’m hurrying in my decisions…
Nor don’t want you think that I’m living in my illusions…
Does living in fantasy and calling it my reality…

Can be considered as a felony…Or a sign of immaturity…?

You have been a great part of me…
A memory that I can dream on forever I see…
Happiness… heartaches… Up’s and Down’s we have shared…
Through the years we challenged and the world we dared…
You never left my side… may it be worse or better…
And you always say that we can take on forever…

I don’t want to be in solitude… afraid to be alone…
Always trying to hold on into something even if it’s gone…
Holding on the memories… Being a sentimental fool…
Trying so hard… pathetic… stupid… thinking it was cool…
But deep inside I’m broken…
Wondering when I could be whole again…